4 years. 4 years have passed. The 4 longest and yet most memorable and significant years of our lives so far. High school has been filled with so many firsts, but also many lasts during our senior year. Maybe it was a first kiss, a first dance, a first time driving by yourself... but with high school coming to an end, my mind has only been consumed with the lasts, trying to wrap my head around that everything I know and am used to is going to change...the last time you’re in the same place with all your friends, the last formal dance, the last rally, the last powderpuff game….
As May quickly approaches, I’ve begun to realize that everything we have been looking forward to for so long is finally here. Yet, the emotions I have been feeling have contradicted the excitement that comes with graduating.
Yes, I am so ready to meet new people. Yes, I am beyond excited to go to college to study my passion. Yes, I’m excited to move on from this town and be a part of something better. But at the same time, I can’t help but wonder...am I really ready? Will I be okay saying goodbye to my parents? Will I be okay being leaving my hometown? My house? My job? My friends?
I remember being 10. My sister was 15. Her life seemed SO perfect. She was in high school, loving life with all her friends, just making memories, going to parties, going to dances, dressing up... I remember thinking “I can’t wait until I’m 15, I just want to be older”
Then one day I was 15 and I felt so young and things were so stressful and I was tired of having braces and being looked down on and all I could think about was being a senior and graduating.
Now I'm 17 and I will be graduating in less than a month... How crazy is it that THIS where I wanted to be for so long, and yet it is nothing like it seemed?
I would do anything to be young again. Yet on the other hand, I can’t wait to be older with a family of my own. We seniors are experiencing such a strange and important milestone in our lives. We are expected to know what we want to do for the rest of our lives. We are expected to be adults. We are expected to handle life on our own.
As stressful and different senior year has been, there is something I’ve learned that I think is important for every senior to know, whatever is going through your head.
Enjoy today. Appreciate the sun above you, your shoes below you, and your hometown around you. Spend more time at home with your family. Take advantage of your weekends with your friends. Go out anyways, even if you are tired. Don’t ignore your parents when they want to spend time with you, they love you so much and are going to miss you more than you know when you’re gone. Don’t get discouraged by your responsibilities, but stay motivated. Hug your mom a little tighter. Tell your dad you love him more often. Apologize to your siblings for the fights you’ve had, and spend quality time with them. Greet your dog with love everytime you come home.
This may sound like something you’ve heard before, but sometimes we get so wrapped up in materialistic things that don’t even matter. Family matters. Relationships matter. Love matters. Take advantage of these last few months...appreciate this time...soak up all these memories...make the most out of every moment, because before you blink august will be here and everything will change. Time doesn’t slow down for anyone.